I feel worthless! Why? Because since I’ve got my PhD and started looking for a job, I am spectacularly failing. With my degree and in my home country there aren’t enough opportunities for me, so I decided to stay in France (where I’ve worked partly on my thesis)  for a while and look for a meaningful career and a job I can be passionate about. But things are not going as I hoped. Since I was a little girl aside from being a scientist, I wanted to be a writer. I always felt that I have something to say, and I wanted to touch people’s hearts and inspire them with my words, in the same way the books I loved touched my soul and inspired me. But I can’t tell how many times I started a blog and either shut it down or deliberately forgot about it because I thought my writing sucks. This one “nerdyamy”is no exception. Today my doubts have just been validated. I applied for a job as a web content writer in a French company,  and wrote 120 words text so they can evaluate my abilities. Their response was what I have always been  afraid to hear from a professional “we are sorry but your text was clumsy and/or full of spelling mistakes”. This is bad for myself confidence. Although I know that I received an automatic reply and I know there weren’t any spelling mistakes in my text, I am sure they didn’t like my style and the topic I chose to talk about. Rationally I know I have to keep practicing and focusing on my goal and dreams but today I am tired and disgusted and I don’t even want to look at myself in the mirror. Later my boyfriend is coming over and I would have to put on a  smile on my face and tell him I am fine so he wouldn’t worry, but all I will be thinking about while looking at his beautiful green eyes is “how can this awesome man love someone like me? Someone who is not good at anything…”

Usually I write blog posts which I never publish. At this time I have 24 saved drafts dating back to last year, which I have absolutely no idea what to do with. I am once again feeling the impulse to save this one, shut my computer down and go get dressed and go on with my life, but today I need to do something different. Today I am going to pretend I don’t care if my post will have no readers or if it will be harshly judged because I have no author skills what so ever. I am doing it anyway…

I won’t ask you to stay tuned like I did when I wrote about my favorite show “Bones”, because honestly I don’t know when I will be able to have the courage to write again. I did not keep my promise and I am truly sorry. I highly doubt that anybody was expecting my posts but I apologize anyway and beyond anything I would like to apologize to myself for not succeeding to become what I always wanted to be.

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10 places where anyone can learn to code

TED Blog

blog_learn_to_code_art_revTeens, tweens and kids are often referred to as “digital natives.” Having grown up with the Internet, smartphones and tablets, they’re often extraordinarily adept at interacting with digital technology. But Mitch Resnick, who spoke at TEDxBeaconStreet in November, is skeptical of this descriptor. Sure, young people can text and chat and play games, he says, “but that doesn’t really make you fluent.”

[ted_talkteaser id=1657]Fluency, Resnick proposes in today’s talk, comes not through interacting with new technologies, but through creating them. The former is like reading, while the latter is like writing. He means this figuratively — that creating new technologies, like writing a book, requires creative expression — but also literally: to make new computer programs, you actually must write the code.

The point isn’t to create a generation of programmers, Resnick argues. Rather, it’s that coding is a gateway to broader learning.“When you learn to read, you…

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The most creative technique to learn Chinese

I have always been fascinated by the chinese culture. The first thing one needs to do to dive into a certain culture and appreciate it properly is to learn its language.

For some reasons , Chinese always seemed to me like a language that is beyond my reach, like it was only made for its native speakers or for some gifted people.

Thanks to Shaolan an amazing woman from Taiwan, Chinese is no longer a mystery to me, although I am just starting my learning journey, but I am quit confident that it would be an incredible one.

Here are some pictures to help you understand what I’m talking about
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And here is a link to Shaolan amazing talk on Ted http://www.ted.com/talks/shaolan_learn_to_read_chinese_with_ease

a link to her website http://chineasy.org/

and her facebook page https://www.facebook.com/ShaoLanChineasy/timeline

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Math 101: A reading list for lifelong learners


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Ready to level up your working knowledge of math? Here’s what to read now — and next.


Math 101, with Jennifer Ouellette

First, start with these 5 books…

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1. Number: The Language of Science
Tobias Dantzig
Plume, 2007

“First published in 1930, this classic text traces the evolution of the concept of a number in clear, accessible prose. (None other than Albert Einstein sang its praises.) A Latvian mathematician who studied under Henri Poincare, Dantzig covers all the bases, from counting, negative numbers and fractions, to complex numbers, set theory, infinity and the link between math and time. Above all, he understood that the story of where mathematical ideas come from, how they relate to each other, and evolve over time, is key to a true appreciation of mathematics.”

2. Innumeracy: Mathematical Illiteracy and its Consequences
John Allen Paulos
Hill and Wang, 2001

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I’m an introvert and there’s nothing wrong with me! The turning point.

To be honest, I have never thought of myself as an introvert,  basically because this word is commonly known as designating people with some psychological troubles that make them shield themselves from the outside world, preventing them from bonding with their peers and having a fulfilled life,  they don’t seek interpersonal relationships and everyone who tries to initiate one with them is systematically rejected. This misconception has vanished as soon as I watched Susan Cain’s talk on TEd, and then all of a sudden a lot of things started making sense to me.

The talk was basically summarizing her amazing book Quiet: the power of introverts in a world that can’t stop talking, I strongly recommend it to everyone, even if you are not an introvert yourself, I can assure you that this book  will change the way you think about introvert people.

After watching the video I  took the test that was on Susan’s web site – it is also available in the book – the result  confirmed what I have already started realizing : I was undeniably an introvert!  I couldn’t wait longer, I felt that I had to read the book, so i downloaded it and my journey toward self-awareness began.

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Throughout my reading I experienced an enormous amount of feelings.  I have never thought  I will be learning about myself as much as I did , I admit,  I cried a lot while reading it, because for the first time I realized that all my personality trades that others have been criticizing and trying to convince me that somehow they handicapped me and that I should put in more efforts to change them, were actually an authentic part of my being, all those years I felt awkward and never had the sense of belonging except when I was alone engaged in one of my favorite activities or around a few specific persons, and finally someone came not only to tell me that it was Ok to be the way I am, but to encourage me to stay the way I am , by telling me those amazing stories about those incredible people like Rosa Parks, Richard Darwin, Albert Einstein, who changed the world and whose characters were not a lot different from mine.

Why I behave like I do? why I talk I do? Why I feel like I do?… all those questions found their answers in Susan Cain’s book.  I am an introvert, and I am completely healthy, it is just the way I enjoy living my life. WHAT A RELIEVING REVELATION!

When I was a child my mom was told that she had an unsympathetic child ,  simply because I was too quiet, I liked to observe people and situations before making any decision regarding them, I was like a data recorder and analyser at the same time. Fortunately my mom never forced me to change in order to fit the social standards, when I read the book I realized that she as well as my father are introverts too, just like me, we enjoy a quiet environment, we only engage in meaningful conversations with one or two people at most and have a tremendous love for books.

After reading Susan Cain’s book, I grew fonder of myself, this doesn’t mean that I dislike extroverts, not at all, I believe that everyone should hold on to what makes them unique,  and not feel the obligation to change just to please their surroundings.

This was my experience with one of my favorite books, I hope it will change your life as much as it changed mine.

With all my love ,


Navier-Stokes Equations Still Unsolved

The Navier-Stokes equations are one of the greatest and fascinating mathematical problems that still need to be solved.

Ocean currents are one of the real phenomenon modeled using the Navier-Stokes equation

Ocean currents are one of the beautifull phenomenon modeled using the Navier-Stokes equations

The latest attempt to solve the Navier-Stokes equations has been proposed earlier this year by the Pr. Mukhtarbay Otelbaev of the university of Kazakhstan.757219

A month later Pr Stephen Montgomery-Smith of the university of Missouri pointed out an inconsistency in the proof which resulted from the use of an incorrect inequality.  download (2)

Pr.Mukhtarbay Otelbaev acknowledged his mistake and committed himself to correct it,  and  come up soon,  with a new concise and flawless proof.

personally I can’t wait !


Source: http://www.nature.com/news/fiendish-million-dollar-proof-eludes-mathematicians-1.15659


About me

I’m not good at talking about myself, it is something that I particularly dislike,  so let’s get it over with : I’m a physics PhD student, looking to share my interests with the world . I believe that  knowledge is best used when shared with others, I am confident that my posts will tell you more than you need to know about me because I will be only posting about the subjects that I love to talk about the most.

So… why this sudden interest in blogging? well, it’s not that sudden actually, I’ve been trying to maintain a blog for several years now, but kept giving up each time, but there must be a reason to why I keep wanting to do this over and over again,  I’ve always felt that I have something to say, something no one has said before , something that somehow would make a difference, I’m not sure what it is yet but I’m sure it will be worth sharing.

I believe that my uncertainty is closely related to the tremendous amount of subjects that  interest me in science, literature, art, sport, music, history, nature… but I need to commit to what I love t, and I entend to succeed.

I feel like this time will be different so let the journey begin…